But... you do know I'm an admin here and at the org, right? ...or do you consider me to be one of the supposedly non-existant cool admins? 
It's not like all the admins are total assholes. I mean, Doki and Dero are still there, they're just not nearly as present. It's just that the "in power" group in general has devolved into intense faggotry since I was last hugely active (2004). AD was cool. Phade was relatively cool. TJ is a huge failure. And the people wielding banhammers irresponsibly (aes, Kal) are even worse.
There is no fucking sane reason in the world why Requiett and I should have been banned from the IRC. We're regular contributing members of the community (also we are awesome). TJ's "ownage" on the forum was full of facepalm and out-of-context. I mean, I was horrified at what had become of the community when I was permaband in '05 (without warning) for linking to tubgirl in the chat BY FUCKING PWOLF. I mean he and I were previously and are now cool with each other. It was totally out of the blue for me. When aes decided to re-perma-fortotallyrealthistime-ban me for acting like #amv was #4chan again without warning, and nobody stood up to it (Kalium defends it to this day, everyone else thinks it's fucking lame), it was like, "What the
fuck, guys?"
I paid money to get on DF purely because I had found some old OT and Video threads on my hard drive, from back when things were super cool. I wanted to see if that thing was still going on, hidden, in DF. It sort of is, but the horrid attitudes populating that community thread shows it's still pretty long gone.
Outside of the little bubble of animemusicvideos.org, most of the alums I know now look at the place as a joke – a shell of its former self. I wasn't just bawwing about bans in that thread, I was voicing my own nostalgia and the disdain of others. Of course, nobody saw through to that, but I guess that could say something in and of itself.
amv.org was my home when I was still too much of an internet faggot to survive in the real world, but not enough of an internet faggot to not want to be social. It was a transitionary community for me and it holds a distinct place in my memories. Much like exes, I'd like to be able to go out for coffee with amv.org once in awhile and just kick the shit without everyone being dicks about it. It's become increasingly difficult. Jesus Christ Becky, I meant it when I said in that email that I hoped you guys were happy. Why can't you just get over the slut comment?
Anyway it doesn't matter now that my 4chan temp ban is over and I won't be bored enough to go on nostalgia trips about amv.org like I was a week ago.
The effects of sleep deprivation have been proven similar to those of heavy alcohol consumption so I'm going to blame that on the fact that I JUST WROTE THAT FUCKING MUCH.
